the simple life

It has finally dawned upon me that while time moves like a light train waiting for no one, I enjoy the simple life much more.

For the past few months, I think I’ve truly been at peace, taking my own pace to do whatever I like, and whenever I like. I enjoy just sitting around at home, watching my TV shows all day with the girlfriend. I also enjoy my hobbies very much, most of which do not need more than the company of 2 or 3 people. Painting, is by large a very solitary hobby, and while the number of games I’ve played don’t exactly match the number of models I paint, I think I’ve finally found something that I’ll be sticking to for the rest of my life. I don’t claim to paint well, maybe decently. But what’s more important is that it allows me to put the whole world away for a couple of hours, and actually concentrate on something. As Stella would probably say, it suits my escapist nature. The same goes for my roleplaying games.

Occasionally, Stella and I will head out for a meal, go shopping, and just walk around town. We’ve grabbed lots of books/graphic novels over the last few holidays, and that, also, is another past-time that I forgot about during my undergrad days, and am beginning to rediscover once again. It’s all these things that make me happy.

So where is all this mindless ramble leading to? Just back to the title actually, where basically I enjoy the simple life. Maybe it’s a product of getting older – all the social commitments and hooha of yesteryear are rapidly fading (or have already faded) as time goes by. It’s just too tiring to keep up. Of course, this also means that I’ve more or less stopped meeting friends that much, and unless invited, I seldom go out of my way to ask people out for a coffee or a chat anymore. Thing is, I’m not fazed by the possibility of losing friends either, so I guess that all works out. At the end of the day, one probably don’t have time for everyone around you.

As the graduation date draws near, I’m constantly worried by the thought of: what if my love for the simple life gets in the way of performance in the future? It’s an extremely disturbing and worrying thought. I need productive work to keep me alive. It is part of my very being. I’m a person that stands by the principle that one can put 100% in work, and still put 100% in other commitments (of course it might mean that I’ll have to sleep less). But what if that love for the simple life causes me to work below 100% productivity? It’ll probably burn a hole through my soul. Pardon the theatrics, but I mean every word.

I don’t know how to end this post. So I guess that’s all I have to say for now.

Learn to swim…where?

There’s something very wrong about seeing a Learn to Swim placard placed right next to a huge drain with no sign of a pool nearby.

(Don’t!) Lend me your ears

I have funny ears, one facing slightly in, one facing slightly out. I suspect one of them doesn’t belong to me.

5% of the people who bought P.S I love you on Amazon also bought…

…dildos. That’s right. Dildos. Why, you may ask? I was also wondering about the same thing till I realised that PS. I Love You was starring Hillary Swank. Hillary sWANK.

HAHA.

sending my games up to heaven

It felt almost symbolic when I decided that it has come to a point that I would not be able to run any roleplaying games in the near future and started packing all my older games into a box. The act of placing that box high up in my cupboard in a place where I would not access them till I really needed to felt as if I was sending my games ‘up to heaven’, and rightfully so, as they have served me well during my many gaming sessions with the guys, who are now mostly spread across the world at this point, or just too busy to game.

I kept the Changeling and CoC book on my shelf as I might run something for Stella and friends if/when the opportunity arises. But right now, we’re mostly occupied with Hordes, cards and probably a bit of DDM. All in all, the verdict still stands that my other RPGs will have to be put away to make way for my growing book collection.

It has always been at the back of my mind that one day I might have to put aside my hobby for other passions/responsibilities, but putting them away because of a lack of a gaming group and regular gaming sessions sure wasn’t something that I really expected.

In a way, I really miss those times.

musings from superhero comics

When it comes down to the day where the heroes in our lives are unable to save us from certain danger, and unlikely individuals whom we have never respected, perhaps even despised- step forward with an alternative solution to our troubles, would we welcome them with open arms?